I thought this was normal. Until I learned that not everyone does it. That it is part of having anxiety.

I worry about things that will most likely never even happen. The fear of things that may happen. It is sometimes debilitating — keeps me up at night. Sometimes I find myself just worry about the stuff when it’s quiet — even just in the shower, I don’t even enjoy that quiet it brings up fears.

The fear of loosing my spouse, loosing my children— and not just loosing them very specific crazy scenarios.

Thinking and worrying about this stuff stressed me out so much! I was worrying about all these what ifs… on top of all the actual.

Life is stressful — bills suck. It always feels like we can never get ahead. 1 step forward 2 steps back. It’s not fair.

But hey — we have a roof over our head, food in our bellies and each other! The amount of love in our household is worth more than any amount of money.

The kinda love from my husband is the kind that melts it all away. I would rather be broke in money and rich in love. With him I can endure anything!