Not very often do I focus on myself. Who am I kidding. Usually I am the last person I am to focus on. I worry about everyone else’s needs before my own no matter what.

After this past year and having a cancer scare I have been changing that. I have been finding my voice if you’d like to say. I have been standing up for myself. Scary but empowering.

The hardest thing I am still working on is saying “no”. I have the hardest time saying no. I feel so guilty saying no. Even to the people who use me as a 2nd or even a 5th choice as there’s. I’m not a priority in their life so why should I make them a priority in my life.

In this past year life has become so clear on who is truly here for my family and who is not. Who would drop everything if we needed them — not only would they drop everything for us but they know that we would return the favor. That’s how it should be. And for that they are getting to love and cherish my beautiful family.

They have seen Penelope’s beautiful smile. Her tender soul. Her kind personality. Her loud scream. They are knowing Paizlee beats to her own drum. But she is the sweetest girl when you get past the walls she has built up. She is growing into the beautiful young lady that can do absolutely anything she puts her mind to — hunting, fishing, traps, soccer, softball (catching, riding her bike, being the best big sister, playing basketball & volleyball in the backyard).

I am so blessed with the sisters I have gained when I married Jerrett. Not only do they love and adore Penelope. They love and play with Paizlee. They are such amazing Aunties ❤️

My two besties have been my rocks thru this past year. Along with my husband he has pulled me out of the dungeon when I didn’t know I needed pulling.

Knowing talks about how hard a hysterectomy is on your body especially when you get it done at the young age of 27. I felt like I was living outside of my body. I was going thru these motions but I wasn’t living. I was having panic attacks, I was so depressed. I am so thankful for my Drs who listened to me. And so thankful we go the cancerous cells out!

I am also thankful this taught me life is short. Life is tough and I only have time for those who make time for me on a regular basis 🫶🏻