I am drowning. Right now I can barely feel like I am breathing. My anxiety is the worst it has ever been. I am having panic attacks for the very first time in my life.

These times are so hard. I know my husband is right where I am. We just need to refresh. Recoup. But when. So much needs done. The house is picked up enough. The laundry is clean. The laundry is a mountain. We are in survival mode.

When was the last time we were able to “see” each other. When were we able to have a kid free conversation.

I remember going to my grandparents as a child for a whole weekend — heck even a whole week! Having the time of my life! Time is not the same. We can barely get a few hours out most nights. Makes my heart hurt for my girls. For the memories — that are unmade.

Looking forward to my next kid free focused conversation with my husband 🫶🏻